I think I’m gonna barf… and that’s not necessarily a bad thing.
I haven’t binged or broken my fast in any way – so yay for me! I’ve got two days left and I’m gonna make it. The only thing that went ‘differently’ today is that I drank a FUCKLOAD of diet soda, which is basically the reason I think I’m about to barf... Seriously, 3 litres! But it’s low calorie (30cals in total for that little indulgence). I don’t think that counts as breaking a fast really..
Oh and I have to say that it’s thanks to these tips by Almost Skinny Vegan, that I’ve survived so far! I swear, if it wasn’t for the frozen apple juice I’ve been licking, I’d be bingeing on something. It may sound crazy, but that little bit of sugar really helps! I want to try finding some forms so I can make them into proper popsicles!
Don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I’ve added some tabs:
Why is Rozy fat? – is basically an ‘about me’
The (current) Skinny Plan – is the diet I’m on currently
I’ve also changed the side bar a bit – I’ve added rewards and I’ve switched weekly goals to STATS.
Don’t have much else to say really… I’m gonna go work on a exercise plan now. I’ll post it, alongside my diet plan, as soon as I’ve finished the fast.
I’m kind of frustrated about the fast though, because this is the first time I’ve fasted and not gotten a flat stomach. Of course, I’ve never been this fat, but still. It’s only common sense that’s keeping me strong – I HAVE to lose weight. It’s not possible that I’ll be the same weight if I keep this up. But I wouldn’t be able to tell that from looking in the mirror… fucking mirror…
I’ve also been doing the opposite of what is typically Ana! Instead of buying clothes that are too small, I’ve been buying clothes that are too big! xD Not because I’m trying to grow into them (fuck that shit – HELL NO!). It’s just because:
- Bigger clothes make you look thinner (if done well).
- I have a closet full of small clothes which I don’t fit already!
- I don’t really have clothes that look good on me now and if I look bad I’m depressed and if I’m depressed I binge.
I’m trying to keep myself happy, it seems to be the best weight loss motivation for me.
Much love to you girls!
xxx
Rozy
P.S. This means 2 more days before I force myself onto the scale again!!! I don’t wanna… do I have to?… Is there actually an official phobia of scales? … just googled it, not that I can find… but there should be!!!