About a year and a half ago, I reached my goal weight of 100lbs at 5'7.

I was pretty, skinny, succesful - but sad and lonely.

I thought Ana had deceived me. 

I thought skinny was stopping me from being happy.

Everyone around me was worried.

They blamed my new skinny self...

and I stupidly, agreed with them.

Now I've gained so much weight I gross myself out and I can't look in the mirror.

Weighing myself makes me suicidal.

But I'll get there again, I'll get back to skinny.

I'm sorry Ana

I'm sorry for thinking you'd forsaken me

I'm sorry for thinkng you made unhappy

I'm sorry for letting go of the reason I hold on

I'm sorry for being away from you for so long

I'm thankful for you staying by my side

This time I'll stand by you with pride

It's me and you against the rest

Together, Ana, we'll be the best.

I'm not going to post my CW until it's in the normal (fat)range again, cause now I'll just cause you guys a cardiac arrest.

Height: 5'7

HW: 165 

LW: 100

CW: too gross to write down

GW 1: 130

GW 2: 120

UGW: 110