Fuck.

It’s Sunday and in about 5 days I’m going to weigh myself for the first time in, possibly, a year.

I set so many goals since last year and failed miserably, this time it’s NOT happening!!

They say you got to take the good with the bad, well…

Good:

1. I just finished a 1-day fast
2. I cleaned up the house
3. I made a work-out plan
4. I thought up a diet

Bad:

1. I just had to borrow clothes from my mother (love her to bits, but she’s not the skinniest).
2. Looked in the mirror and saw… myself – not looking too hot.
3. I’m fat
4. I’m fat
5. I’m fat (yes, that counts for three)
6. I’m probably not going to reach my goal (145) by Friday

I know this because my mom wore those clothes when she was about 165 and there’s no way I can lose 20lbs by Friday!

But I’m not changing my goal yet AGAIN! I’m sticking to 145 and I’ll just see how far I get.

 

Also, I’m going to start taking better care of myself, make-up, accessories, all that BS – because even though I look like shit, I could like pretty shit. And I noticed that when I look decent, I’m less likely to fail at my diet.

 

But, to end on a happy note – at least the 1-day fast worked out :D

 

Play for this week:

• Monday – juice
• Tuesday – fast
• Wednesday – juice
• Thursday – fast

So to more fasts to go. Now for some optimistic math!

On a fast, I lose about 3lbs and with juice, no more than 1, so the most I could lose in these for days is: 8lbs and assuming I’m 155 (which is really optimistic, but yeah…), I could be 147 by Friday, which isn’t too bad. It should be possible, because when your this fat, you should lose wait quickly.

Fingers crossed and lips sealed – that’s how I’m getting through this week.

xxxx

Rozy