Is this good news or bad news?

Today was weigh in and… I weighed in.

First of all, let me laugh at myself for ever thinking I would weigh less than 160…

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

Okay, now that I’m done with laughing at myself, I’m sure you’d all like to know what number the scale slapped in my face…

167!!!

 

I used a bigger font to emphasize the immensity of this number, although I think the number speaks for itself (of course it does, a number that big not only has a voice, it has fucking fingers it can point to better laugh at me!)

 

Bye now, I’m going to dig a hole where I can lay in for eternity…

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Oh yeah, there was a bright side to this news… (ever the optimist).

The GOOD news is that I weigh 167 – confusing, non?

Let me explain.

I was Ana and I was Mia – it was NOT fun. I’m not Ana anymore (duh, fatness…) or Mia, both of which I’m happy about. Anyone who’s been either knows it’s not a GOOD thing. You’re constantly depressed, the only thing that makes you smile is knowing you’re getting skinnier. You have no energy, no will to live, no interest in doing anything but losing weight.

I DON’T EVER WANT TO GO BACK TO THAT!

Though my weightloss methods aren’t orthodox, I am NOT BFF with ED anymore, nor do I plan to be.

Being 167 is good because I thought I weighed less, I didn’t feel fat obese. I know that a year ago, I felt obese at 125.

It’s good news, because this emphasizes that I was thin at 117. It’s good news because it means I can be healthy AND “skinny”. I won’t adjust my goal once I get to 117. I will no longer think that I need to be under 100 to be happy.

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I changed up my blog a bit. Now you can see the people I follow and my weekly goals (+current weight). Also I’ve added a bar with my current diet/workout plan.

In september I took a pic of myself, so that I could see my progress. I’m going to take another picture today. I’ll post it today or tomorrow, so you guys can see my progress too. I actually really wanted to NOT take a picture, but if I don’t, I know I won’t be motivated enough, if you guys can see how I’m doing, I won’t want to let you down, so I’ll be more successful…

Oh and another up-side to being so fat – I won’t buy new clothes!!! I’m broke anyway, so I guess that’s good :P (fat humour – laugh!)

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Point is, I’m not giving up! I will make it to my goal and I won’t use any extreme methods (well, extreme for my standards).

I’ll post my diet in a few minutes.

 

Thanks for following me, guys (8 followers makes me happy :D), you’re my rock.

 

Love you all, dolls!

xxx

Rozy